Compost Happens

My life is dramatic. Maybe one of my bigger rants of life. Get pumped.

I’m quickly losing faith in my chances with the guy I like. This is Aaron: 

Welcome to my crush of almost 14 months. I know, I know that is a long time. He went to Spain in the fall, and now is finally back. We hang out a lot and are best friends, but that seems to be it. We. are. best. friends. and that is that. That is my life - being best friends with the guy that I like. So I should probably face the facts right? right. So enough is enough. I have got to get pass this… I am his best friend - so I will always be there when he wants to talk about other girls he is interested in. Welcome to my life. 

Now… onto my other best friend (or used to be best friend) Drew:

He and I were inseparable during Fall semester. We really just understood each other. Everyone said we were perfect for each other and some days I even believed them… I think, but he knew that I liked Aaron. What it comes down to is that he and I were the first and last person that we would see on a daily basis. 

Fast forward to after Christmas break. We came back and everything is fine. Then we both went to pick up Aaron from the train station. Then Drew was never the same. We don’t text, we don’t call, we don’t even really talk. Anytime we talk it is only a little surface-like conversation. I have been told that Drew likes me, and maybe that is justifying his actions because Aaron is back and we hang out a lot now. Or he is just being whiny and doesn’t like that I hang out with Aaron more than him. 

Either way it comes down to this: Aaron doesn’t like me. Drew maybe used to like me, but now is bitter towards me… I used to have two men and now I have zero.